It’s Sunday, Mother’s Day, night and somehow I’ve found the courage to write this post….
I am a motherless daughter.
About 3 months ago, on February 18th to be exact, I said goodbye to the most beautiful thing my life had ever known, my mommy. She was taken by a rare disease called systemic scleroderma. She was 51 years old. There is not a moment of a day that goes by when I don’t miss her. And although there is a huge, massive void in my life, a pain so raw you can only explain it with tears, and a “Mom” speed dial button in my phone with no voice at the other end, I am not here to write about my pain or sadness. I am here to write about my mom and all of her amazingness just like I did last year, in honor of Mother’s Day.
You might be a million miles away, mommy, but I had to say Happy Mother’s day, because you are truly a mother worth honoring on this day.
Many of you know my mom personally. Many of you do not. Many of you interacted with my mom, a.k.a HBI social media manager, without even knowing it. Many of you have only met her once and others a million times. But either way, if you’re reading this blog you “know” a part of me, and if you know a part of me, you know a part of my mom.
I will steal Abe Lincoln’s words to help make my point…
I made this note for my sister for Mother’s Day. I know she understands this saying to the deepest like I do, she’s also a mother now and I know this is the kind of mother she will be. She’ll follow right in Mommy’s footsteps.
I love this quote from Abe because I truly believe it. When I think of all things I am, and all the things I hope to be, the first thing I think of is my mom….
~ She taught me to be strong when facing adversity~
She fought her disease till the last day. With a strength that you had to see to believe. She had a zest for life that made her get out of bed on days when her body told her otherwise.
~She taught me to be selfless~
My mom was the most selfless person I knew. She would give up anything to help someone in need. She was the person that always remembered what you were going through and never mentioned her own struggles. She truly cared that much about others.
~She taught me to follow my dreams~
When I told my mom I wanted to start a non-profit, she did hours and hours of research to help me start. When I told her about starting my own stationery/invitation company she said, “You’ll be so amazing at that! How can I help?” She never doubted me. Even with the BIGGEST dreams. Instead, she supported me wholeheartedly. She is the reason I have my own company, she is the reason HBI is where it is today.
~She taught me to listen to my heart~
Of course my mom taught me that being logical was necessary, but so was listening to my heart. She taught me that God speaks directly to our hearts. And listening to your heart is sometimes the easy part, sometimes it is harder to actually do what your hearts want you to….that’s where the strength lesson comes in handy.
~She taught to be humble and yet proud~
My mom was incredibly proud of me. She told me every single day. She also taught me to be humble. My mom was brilliant and creative and yet she never bragged of her talents. She, instead, bragged about those she learned from, and a few times that included me. I’ve never been more honored.
~She taught me to always put family first~
This one I learned from my mom’s actions, not her words. My mom always put family first. Whatever it took. Sometimes this meant big sacrifices and sometimes it just meant being thoughtful. I’m 25 years old and my mom still drove me to the airport. It’s nice to have someone drive you and drop you right off by the ticket counter, and if that put a smile on my face or made my day a little easier, my mom did it. A few days before my mom went to heaven, she was frantically looking for the computer because she wanted to “order stuff”. Only my dad knew she was ordering something special for our family to have and hold after she passed. Below is a photo of what my mommy ordered for her “team”…
These shirts came in the mail the day before my mommy flew to heaven.
I learned many more lessons from my mom, but those are some of the ones I cherish most. I was so incredibly blessed to have her as my mom. She impacted my life in such a way that I can’t breathe without thinking of her. She is all of me and I couldn’t be more proud.
Happy Mother’s Day, Mom, the most beautiful soul I ever knew…
This is the hardest blog post I’ve ever had to conclude. I always looked most forward to my mom’s comments. They were so encouraging and loving. She was always my biggest fan….so I’ll re-live her comment from last year’s Mother’s Day post….
I can hardly read this through the tears in my eyes.
Each day that I get to spend with you is my best day. You are the inspiration and strength that drives me to keep on going. You are God’s gift to me…my most cherished gift.
The words in your post are beautiful, and I thank you not only for the words, but for being YOU…an incredible giving and loving daughter. Thank you.
I love you with all my heart! XXOO